29 June 2011

Untuk Adinda...

Pagi ini rasanya berbeda. Aku terbangun dari mimpi yang menghantarkanku pada khayalan tentang adik. 

Perempuan manis yang selalu berkata 'ya' pada Ibunda, yang acapkali menangis mendengarku 'berceramah'. Perempuan sholehah yang membuat batinku tenang karena aku tahu aku selalu dapat mempercayainya.
Perempuan muda nan tangguh yang selalu mampu menyisipkan perasaan hati terdalamnya.

Adinda, itu namanya.

Hari ini, 29 Juni 2011, hari ke-226 aku pergi meninggalkannya.

Demi mimpi, asa, dan cita, aku menyimpan kesedihan karena perasaan kehilangan akan dirinya,
Aku kehilangan kejujurannya, kesabarannya, kebahagiaan karena mampu menyaksikannya tumbuh menjadi perempuan cantik nan mempesona.

Ia adalah pendengar setia yang tak pernah memaksaku untuk balik mendengarkannya.

Adinda adalah hartaku yang paling berharga setelah Ibunda tercinta.

Di dalam mimpiku, aku melihatnya dari kejauhan, tanpa Ia mampu melihatku.
Aku menyaksikannya berjalan bersama teman-teman terbaiknya, tersenyum bahagia dan sesekali tertawa.

Itulah Adinda, adikku, yang hanya membagi keceriaannya tanpa memberi kesempatan pada manusia lain di sekitar untuk mengetahui kesulitan dan hal yang Ia rasa.

Ia terlalu istimewa.

Jenjang enam tahun perbedaan usia kami membuatku kadang merasa jumawa terhadapnya.
Aku merasa lebih tahu, merasa selalu benar, dan mengesampingkan perasaannya sebagai manusia biasa.

Jarak lah yang menyadarkanku bahwa Adinda adalah hartaku yang berharga.

Berapa banyak perempuan berusia 17 tahun yang memiliki ketegaran seperti dirinya?
Aku bangga padanya, aku merindukannya.

Andaikata dunia telah mampu memuaskanku akan ambisi dan cita-cita,

Andaikata di hari esok, hari ke-227 perpisahanku dengan Adinda, aku telah meraih apa yang menjadi bagian dari perjalanan 7 bulan penuh perjuangan ini,

Andaikata Doraemon berbaik hati meminjamkan pintu ajaibnya untuk satu hari ini kepadaku,

Aku akan datang menemuinya, tak perduli durasi atau limitasi waktu.

Aku hanya ingin memeluknya dan mengatakan padanya, "Uni rindu, Adinda."

Adinda Afifa Putri, adikku satu-satunya, karunia dari Tuhan untukku,
Suatu hari nanti, ketika dirimu menjalani kehidupanmu yang kamu pilih sendiri,
Uni harap Dinda akan menyadari, bahwa Dinda tidak sendiri.

Aku dan kamu adalah satu.
Aku dan kamu adalah harta yang paling dicintai Ibunda.
Aku dan kamu adalah mimpi yang tertunda.

Mari terus bermimpi, Adikku.
Seperti aku yang terus bermimpi akan hari itu,
Hari dimana aku dan kamu memeluk Ibunda di sofa rumah kita bersama.
Karena kita adalah satu...

ps: Di dalam salah satu email yang adikku kirim kepadaku di bulan Maret 2011 silam, Ia menulis,

"Ni, jangan tinggalin Dinda.."

Pada hari itu aku berjanji pada diri sendiri, bahwa semua pengorbanan ini akan kutebus dengan manis. Aku tidak akan membuang waktu dengan percuma. 

29 Juni 2011, 11:14am.

Untuk Adinda, adikku tercinta,

Nini Afie di Lima

DSK : '09 & '11

NEWSWEEK December 7, 2009:

"Today the storm has passed. The worst has been avoided." - Dominique Strauss-Kahn, the International Monetary Fund's managing director, speaking about the economic crisis at the Confederation of British Industry's annual conference in London.

THE GUARDIAN June 17, 2011:

"I have diplomatic immunity." - Dominique Strauss-Kahn told the police shortly after he was detained in New York on accusations he tried to rape a hotel maid.

"Time is free, but it's priceless. You can't own it but you can use it. You can't keep it but you can spend it. Once you've lost it you can never get it back." Quote by Harvey MacKay.


27 June 2011

The Buddhist Monk's Quote

Sunday, 3:08pm.

Another gloomy day in Lima and it seriously has turned my mood up's and down lately. Aggh.

I have story to tell. Almost one month ago, I met for the very first time with Annie Driscoll, a girl from DC. We met in Ayacucho airport before we took the small bus to go to Alcamenca district for our social works together.

Annie came and in a very short time we became friend and talked about many things. Within 2 weeks, I recognized her as one of the most positive person on earth because of her attitudes, the way she looks on life, and she also helped me to think from different perspectives about many things. She simply left very nice impressions on me about her and I hope everything will always good with her and her family in DC.

When she came, she brought a book written by Jacqueline Novogratz-the founder of Acumen Fund, titled "The Blue Sweater". It took me only several days to finish the book and one word to say after I completed it was: AWESOME.

Novogratz's life is something that probably many young people would be willing to trade off with. Travelled to Africa, became a representative of international organization, been here-there-and everywhere, worked with locals and learned the language, and the most special thing was: She had the time of her life. She made the most of her journeys.

26 June 2011

The Configuration of Life.

Pictures of my biking day, one fine Saturday back in March 2011.

Along Costa Verde, Lima.

Along the cliffs, San Isidro-Lima.

15 minutes break for "Raspadilla", sweet flavoured ice.

"Jalea Mixta" or fried seafood for 15 Soles in Chorrilos!

Here I am. Stumble upon my own search of the meaning "challenging myself of doing something far beyond what I might have expected in the past".

I recently writing a lot about future, paraphrase my definition of some mysterious paths after the 'now' time frame. Looking for, define, asking back, silently confused by too many options in the world. This is a permanent state. Nothing well-explicated.

Why I am asking too many times about the meaning of life if I have never start embracing the real life itself?
I feel so hard to let myself facing out something other than what's inside my comfort zone. 


This universe is funny. It makes us forget about the imagination of the end of the day. Too fun to be missed, this world offers too many things we can't say no to. Life is over-rated now. 

Where to go now? Ambitions-dreams-challenges or... facing another reality?


Life is mysteriously funny and exciting at once. Enjoy! :)

22 June 2011

Steve Jobs says...

Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinion drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what they truly want you become. Everything else is secondary." -Steve Jobs-

For My Grandmother : Please, stay as an Angel.

My Grandfather with Mami, West Sumatra.

I had a dream last night. I met my grand mother, a very sweet woman to whom I often share my feeling with, the woman I call "Mami".

She was wearing her long dress with brown veil covered her grey hair. We sat at her old house, the house where I grew up at. She told me one simple statement in Indonesia language : "Mami kangen Fifa. Jangan pergi lagi ya..." 

In english, it would be: "I (Mami) miss you, Fifa. Please stay, dont go anywhere anymore.."

And then we hugged and cried together.

15 June 2011

Between Me and Humalla's Thought

For you in Indonesia or in any other part of the world outside Peru, this is Ollanta Humala, Peru's President-to-be who will take the seat as Alan Garcia's successor on July 28th 2011.

Now in this post I won't talk much about him (ideologically or politically), but I just wanna quoting one of his statement which I found in BBC's article.

"I dont believe in turning the problems of Latin America into ideological battles. We've been through that and it ended in bloody civil wars."

I am not quite sure which political ideology this man will go through with for the next 5 years term presidency. But one thing I truly agree is: Spending time debating each other about which ideology is the rightest one, is just wasting time and.. energy. 

In Indonesia context, probably it is more into putting religiosity as a public debate. Why? What for? Which one is right and which one is wrong? How do we know which one is right and which one is wrong?

Again, quoting Humalla: Ideological battles will be ended in bloody civil wars.

I hope people in Indonesia will be smart enough to stop this massive fiasco. Build the country by enriching people, not killing them ideologically. People have their rights to choose: To believe or not to believe any religion at all. 

Being a Moslem, Christian, Protestant, Catholic, Hinduism, Buddhist, Ahmadiyya, Scientific, Kaballah, whatever it is. Respect. 


Speaking about ideology, speaking about freedom.
Freedom or... civil wars (in the end).

Ohh.. I love you Humalla (hahaha) :)

14 June 2011

Currently Searching : The Meaning of Life

I spent about an hour today walking around El Polo area just by myself, having lots of thought in my mind about my life, my experiences, my mistakes, my failures, and so on and so on until I stopped myself in one part: The question part.

I got myself all confused on what I want now. What I'm really heading into in correlation with what I am really wanna do in life. Lame and cliche? For me these things are daily meals for my mind.

Once, an old man told me: If you know what you want, then you know what you need. If you know what you need, then you know what to do. If you know what to do, then just do it.

09 June 2011

Mercado: Santiago de Surco.

    I love market. Whatever you call it: Traditional market, groceries market, even 'dirty market'. I love to see how people do bargain with the seller, how butcher use their extra big knifes into slices of fresh meat, and most important of all: I love to cook my own food. That's why I went to this market, for the very first time since my 'almost-seven-months-staying in Lima'. The place was very clean and neat! Totally different than the usual market I knew in Indonesia. By the way, I bought fresh seafood and chicken's breast.


    I love market. Bagaimanapun orang biasa menyebutnya dengan berbagai nama: Pasar tradisional, pasar grosir, bahkan dengan sebutan 'pasar becek' sekalipun. Saya suka menyaksikan bagaimana pembeli melakukan tawar menawar dengan penjual, bagaimana tukang daging menggunakan pisau ekstra besar untuk memotong-motong daging, dan yang paling saya suka: Berbelanja kebutuhan untuk memasak makanan saya sendiri. Ini lah kenapa saya mengunjungi pasar ini pertama kali dalam cerita 7 bulan keberadaan saya di Lima. Pasar ini berbeda dari pasar-pasar yang saya tahu di Indonesia, bersih dan rapih! Oh ya, saya membeli seafood segar dan dada ayam.

Today's Breakfast

Today. Breakfast.

08 June 2011

The Journey That Teach Me How To Value Life

Hello everyone, first please forgive this long pause of blogging. It's been my second weeks in Lima again after 8 days staying with people in Alcamenca, small district in a highland-2 hours road trip by local mini bus from Ayacucho, Peru. I feel blessed for the opportunity that been given to me lately. It is not about how many places I have been to, but how many stories I can keep and share to other people in the future.

As a human, I have been living my life mostly in a big cities. Born and raised in Jakarta, the capital city of Indonesia, the very first time I stayed outside of this town was when I enrolled Universitas Gadjah Mada, government's university located in Central Java spesifically in a city named Yogyakarta.

I always know that I won't be able to live in remote areas, the only reason probably because I couldn't imagine myself (ME) without magazines, newspapers, internet (the most important of all), et cetera.. et cetera. When I was trying to finish my thesis back in last year, I was very confuse about the option 'to go' or 'not to go' to Papua Island, the poor area in east part of the country. My thesis was about Freeport Company's contract and it's relevances with environmental protection in the Papua Island (where the company's based it's main mining activities). After loong considerations, I decided not to go to Papua (one of my life's decision that I probably will regret the most).